am i the only one?

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Posted by Espo22

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Posted by cbcf

I kinda feel your pain Denise.

I have been getting constent headaches and I never get headaches. Now I need glasses so that for some reason stressed me out but it was because ofthe headaches I found out I needed them.

Then....school FULL TIME *****! Grad school is definitely not fun. I hate my classes and professors and the work involved haha I just want my career already. I hate how every class has 15 or more of observations to do. And they are all assigned at different schools. Therefore I need to take off from work to complete them (and I don't get paid for days I take off). It's like schools dont give a crap that you work....you need these hours and thats it.

And then work- I HATE MY JOB. I worked here for 2 years and now I am comfortable adn I like the people I work around but i need a job with benefits so I can get off my parents. It ***** not getting paid when taking off...anyoe wanna help!! I have a BA in Psych haha

Then the wedding planning...and FH not being home. And him annoying me about planning the wedding. HELLO you arent home shut up I am doing this by myself. And then he is going to Iraq in March-- hence moving the wedding back which stressed me out. UGHH I hate life right now and I need a break.

I want to go away for a couple days when fh comes home for chrismtas

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I am so sorry catie i know it must be so hard and to go through all this without your FH...i hope you two get to go away for a few days

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thanks Denise. I hope we can too. It is just so busy and him not being here to help or just to let me cry on his shoulder makes ti that much harder!! It does su*k.

But i hope you will feel better soon as well!!! i totoally undersand not wanting to get dressed up to go to work and do your hair/makeup. I havent done my makeup in prob a month or more to go to work haha. and today i am excited to go to the city to see the rockettes but feel guilty for leaving work earlywhen i need to take off thur for observing at a school..ughh the stress

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Posted by Mizzdimple

I hope everything gets better...cheer up! Take a vacay away from everyone....even if its for a day by yourself go shopping., treat yourself to a day for you.

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i think i will, even if its for a day lol...thank you

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Posted by cbcf

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Posted by Espo22

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Posted by cbcf

I kinda feel your pain Denise.

I have been getting constent headaches and I never get headaches. Now I need glasses so that for some reason stressed me out but it was because ofthe headaches I found out I needed them.

Then....school FULL TIME *****! Grad school is definitely not fun. I hate my classes and professors and the work involved haha I just want my career already. I hate how every class has 15 or more of observations to do. And they are all assigned at different schools. Therefore I need to take off from work to complete them (and I don't get paid for days I take off). It's like schools dont give a crap that you work....you need these hours and thats it.

And then work- I HATE MY JOB. I worked here for 2 years and now I am comfortable adn I like the people I work around but i need a job with benefits so I can get off my parents. It ***** not getting paid when taking off...anyoe wanna help!! I have a BA in Psych haha

Then the wedding planning...and FH not being home. And him annoying me about planning the wedding. HELLO you arent home shut up I am doing this by myself. And then he is going to Iraq in March-- hence moving the wedding back which stressed me out. UGHH I hate life right now and I need a break.

I want to go away for a couple days when fh comes home for chrismtas

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I am so sorry catie i know it must be so hard and to go through all this without your FH...i hope you two get to go away for a few days

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thanks Denise. I hope we can too. It is just so busy and him not being here to help or just to let me cry on his shoulder makes ti that much harder!! It does su*k.

But i hope you will feel better soon as well!!! i totoally undersand not wanting to get dressed up to go to work and do your hair/makeup. I havent done my makeup in prob a month or more to go to work haha. and today i am excited to go to the city to see the rockettes but feel guilty for leaving work earlywhen i need to take off thur for observing at a school..ughh the stress

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thank you

you know what dont even worry about that, just focus on going out tonight and having a good time...get all dolled up and have the best time, you deserve it

your not the only one, i have totally forgot about wedding planning, i have put it out of my mind almost completely the past few months.

I have a few more things to book and confirm, and i am just putting it off. I remember this time last year, and it was totally different feeling.

We are also so consumed with the house, and the building and planning of it, every weekend, we have meetings with our interior designer, going over things, and deciding on what will go where, where the light switches will go, etc...

I guess i just feel like the house needs more of my attention than the wedding, cause the wedding is one day, and i have to live in this house for a long time so i need it to be perfect and the way we both want it.

ETA: I am going to Rochester This sunday til friday, and i am so excited, we have been living with inlaws for a few months now, and it will be great to get away for a week! and Destress!

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Posted by Espo22

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Posted by jboothin2008

For me I am a little stressed out about my health ... I am going on a biologic therapy treatment for my psoriasis in late Nov and have had to go for bloodwork and a flu shot and a PPD (tb tine, to make sure I don't have tuberculosis ... ) this past week. I have a GYN appt tonight, and on the way I have to go back to the damn reg dr so they can check the PPD and make sure it's negative ... I had a hair appt on Sat. which is nice but another damn appt., a little stressful .. I have a bunch of dental work to do later this month ... that's always fun ... FH has a bad cold so of course you know how men are, he's 'dying' .. I've had to take care of him, go out and get medicine when I was JUST OUT, etc ...

And then there's a little bit of anxiety I am feeeling about the actual meds I will be going on, I have to get a shot once a week for 12 weeks, and it may help, it may not. This is like a last resort. Copays are $40 a week and yes I have to pay every week.

Let's not even consider the fact that FH is a pack rat and we have a new 25 foot enclosed car trailer and a camper that we need to find room for at the house we rent because my landlord has boats that he stores there over the winter, and they go exacrly where these two new 'toys' are now....



Wedding? what wedding?

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Sorry youre dealing with this, i pray it all turns out well

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Thanks sweetie. We are going away this weekend for FH's bday, to a beer festival in RI, and I am hoping he feels better and that we have a great time. I need a break ....

I hope you are feeling better soon! Have fun at happy hour!

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Ooo beer festival, have a great time and just take your mind off of everything.

Thanks, im not a big drinker but tonight i definitely need a few

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Posted by missliss

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Posted by cbcf

I kinda feel your pain Denise.

I have been getting constent headaches and I never get headaches. Now I need glasses so that for some reason stressed me out but it was because ofthe headaches I found out I needed them.

Then....school FULL TIME *****! Grad school is definitely not fun. I hate my classes and professors and the work involved haha I just want my career already. I hate how every class has 15 or more of observations to do. And they are all assigned at different schools. Therefore I need to take off from work to complete them (and I don't get paid for days I take off). It's like schools dont give a crap that you work....you need these hours and thats it.

And then work- I HATE MY JOB. I worked here for 2 years and now I am comfortable adn I like the people I work around but i need a job with benefits so I can get off my parents. It ***** not getting paid when taking off...anyoe wanna help!! I have a BA in Psych haha

Then the wedding planning...and FH not being home. And him annoying me about planning the wedding. HELLO you arent home shut up I am doing this by myself. And then he is going to Iraq in March-- hence moving the wedding back which stressed me out. UGHH I hate life right now and I need a break.

I want to go away for a couple days when fh comes home for chrismtas

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Honestly, I give you sooooo much credit. I don't know how you do it. I don't know that I could have made it this far through all of this w/o FH physically by my side. Not to be corny, but you're very inspiring.

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thank you!! i guess it just goes to show distance can make the heart grow fonder . i never ever for a mintue said i wish i never went through this or wish i didnt love him so i wouldnt have to. i love him and miss him unbelievably dont get me wrong and it is sooooooo hard but it makes me love every minute more that i have with him and cherish and not take for granted what we have and what we will have in the future!!! thank you though. all your kinds words also help me make it through!!!

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Posted by TheFutureMrsM

your not the only one, i have totally forgot about wedding planning, i have put it out of my mind almost completely the past few months.

I have a few more things to book and confirm, and i am just putting it off. I remember this time last year, and it was totally different feeling.

We are also so consumed with the house, and the building and planning of it, every weekend, we have meetings with our interior designer, going over things, and deciding on what will go where, where the light switches will go, etc...

I guess i just feel like the house needs more of my attention than the wedding, cause the wedding is one day, and i have to live in this house for a long time so i need it to be perfect and the way we both want it.

ETA: I am going to Rochester This sunday til friday, and i am so excited, we have been living with inlaws for a few months now, and it will be great to get away for a week! and Destress!

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yeah i hate how much wedding things ive let build up that i have to get to, makes me even less motivated.

Have fun in rochester

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Posted by BellaChandella

i haven't been able to sleep in a month and a half or so... i don't bother doing my hair or make up anymore ... i'm helping my family with things and putting myself second.. like i do with everything..

i need to get crackin but i just don't want to deal with anyone or anything...

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I have the same problem, but I can sleep, all I want to do is sleep really, it's the only time my mind is at rest. I always put everyone else first.....I just start walking at lunch to get some fresh air and it took a while but I was able to get through a couple of things on my to do list so I feel semi-productive and just keep taking one day at a time.

Denise, enjoy yourself tonight. Have fun with your friends.

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Posted by catsgirl

ditto, ditto, ditto, alot of things is just gettn to me. and taking off work today, and spending time alone, helped some. fh will be home soon, and we have a b-day party, we always have something, never alot of time for each other, and when we get it were so exhausted we fall asleep. so i dunno.....

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schedule time together...sometimes we have so much going on and we forget what truly is important

you are not the only one Denise.

I wish I could concentrate more on wedding stuff but I can't. I have so much going on right now it's ridiculous. I kept saying to myself, once I finish school, once I do this, once I do that. It never changes, it's always something.

I wish I could go back 3 years.

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Posted by Espo22

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Posted by cbcf

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Posted by Espo22

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Posted by cbcf

I kinda feel your pain Denise.

I have been getting constent headaches and I never get headaches. Now I need glasses so that for some reason stressed me out but it was because ofthe headaches I found out I needed them.

Then....school FULL TIME *****! Grad school is definitely not fun. I hate my classes and professors and the work involved haha I just want my career already. I hate how every class has 15 or more of observations to do. And they are all assigned at different schools. Therefore I need to take off from work to complete them (and I don't get paid for days I take off). It's like schools dont give a crap that you work....you need these hours and thats it.

And then work- I HATE MY JOB. I worked here for 2 years and now I am comfortable adn I like the people I work around but i need a job with benefits so I can get off my parents. It ***** not getting paid when taking off...anyoe wanna help!! I have a BA in Psych haha

Then the wedding planning...and FH not being home. And him annoying me about planning the wedding. HELLO you arent home shut up I am doing this by myself. And then he is going to Iraq in March-- hence moving the wedding back which stressed me out. UGHH I hate life right now and I need a break.

I want to go away for a couple days when fh comes home for chrismtas

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I am so sorry catie i know it must be so hard and to go through all this without your FH...i hope you two get to go away for a few days

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thanks Denise. I hope we can too. It is just so busy and him not being here to help or just to let me cry on his shoulder makes ti that much harder!! It does su*k.

But i hope you will feel better soon as well!!! i totoally undersand not wanting to get dressed up to go to work and do your hair/makeup. I havent done my makeup in prob a month or more to go to work haha. and today i am excited to go to the city to see the rockettes but feel guilty for leaving work earlywhen i need to take off thur for observing at a school..ughh the stress

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thank you

you know what dont even worry about that, just focus on going out tonight and having a good time...get all dolled up and have the best time, you deserve it

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thanks Denise!!!!

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Posted by SparkyandAng

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Posted by BellaChandella

i haven't been able to sleep in a month and a half or so... i don't bother doing my hair or make up anymore ... i'm helping my family with things and putting myself second.. like i do with everything..

i need to get crackin but i just don't want to deal with anyone or anything...

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I have the same problem, but I can sleep, all I want to do is sleep really, it's the only time my mind is at rest. I always put everyone else first.....I just start walking at lunch to get some fresh air and it took a while but I was able to get through a couple of things on my to do list so I feel semi-productive and just keep taking one day at a time.

Denise, enjoy yourself tonight. Have fun with your friends.

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yeah sometimes i get home and i just lay down and just want to sleep lol.

Stay productive, good you got some things done

Thank you

I went through this same thing a few months before my wedding. I had a 2 year engagement..so probably half way through I practically hit the walll. When people asked me about my plans, or if I was excited I didn't even want to talk about it. I had such a short fuse and would just break down for no reason. And forget about if I got bad news about anything...I would in a way be annoyed by it and couldn't deal with anything. I honestly would finish off a bottle of wine in my bedroom and want to be alone. And work...HA...what a joke. Work was the last thing I wanted to deal with.

I was like that for about 2 months. But then for some reason I sort of got over it. The excitement started to come and I kind of got out of my funk. I think maybe I was more stressed out about the wedding then I thought, and even stressed out about becoming a wife. And because I had that stress everything else that went wrong in my life was magnified 100X.

fh and i are def in a routine - its not a bad routine and i dont mind being in a routine at all.....but as of now the routine doesnt involve that many fun things.....mostly because we cant spend any money! our routine has been the same since we've been living together (3 years in feb!) except for minor changes - like now he works a lot more OT during the week.......I just miss when we had money to do things and go places - now we are just trying to save save save.....so even though we arent depriving ourselves it still would be fun to do more 'date' like things with FH....

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Posted by LuvMyAlfonse

you are not the only one Denise.

I wish I could concentrate more on wedding stuff but I can't. I have so much going on right now it's ridiculous. I kept saying to myself, once I finish school, once I do this, once I do that. It never changes, it's always something.

I wish I could go back 3 years.

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im sorry why does everything have to get in the way of our planning, i would love to just focus on that and for the wedding to be my only stress

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Posted by Espo22

That just wants to get away from everything right now lol...with the wedding, personal issues, and just so many other things i feel worn out...its sad bc i remember this time last year and it was so different and great, we were engaged a few months and barely started planning and this week last year we went away and had a great trip and there were no problems at all. I go to bed late bc i have a million things on my mind, wake up early for work-tired all day and have so many things on my to do list that i have a hard time getting to I would give anything to go back in time one year ago lol

I made plans for after work to meet friends for happy hour and cant wait

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I think happy hour will def. be a temporary cure.

Question: How does your FH sleep and go on about his day? Does all of this stuff get to him like it gets to you? Or is he kind of blissfully unaware?

I feel like I carry all the stress....he's stressed don't get me wrong. But he has an extremely demanding job that lately has been making him work around the clock, so I feel like I try to keep as much additional stress away from him as I can....and I don't want to worry him with how stressed out I am, ya know?

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Posted by Dolce19

I went through this same thing a few months before my wedding. I had a 2 year engagement..so probably half way through I practically hit the walll. When people asked me about my plans, or if I was excited I didn't even want to talk about it. I had such a short fuse and would just break down for no reason. And forget about if I got bad news about anything...I would in a way be annoyed by it and couldn't deal with anything. I honestly would finish off a bottle of wine in my bedroom and want to be alone. And work...HA...what a joke. Work was the last thing I wanted to deal with.

I was like that for about 2 months. But then for some reason I sort of got over it. The excitement started to come and I kind of got out of my funk. I think maybe I was more stressed out about the wedding then I thought, and even stressed out about becoming a wife. And because I had that stress everything else that went wrong in my life was magnified 100X.

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i hope things get better soon lol but glad to know it might just be a phase

I feel you 100%!!!

There are so many horrible things going on around me, and its been like this for the past year..and its REALLY taking it's toll on me. I feel like I am in such a rut! And seriously, I can't find my way out!

On Sunday I woke up crying, and cried my eyes out for like an hour. I just feel like there is sooo much pressure inside of me. It felt good, but it also hurt to cry. I remember being so strong, and lately I just feel so weak.

I know the worse thing to do is ignore friends, especially because I need them so much right now but at the same time I feel so torn! Like you said, I don't want to call them up just to complain, and half the time..I really don't feel like talking about any of it, I want to escape it all. I don't want to be a burden and I don't want them to worry about me. Plus, they are all going through so much themselves, which also weighs a lot on my mind. Sometimes I wish I was a better friend, but I sometimes feel I don't have the strength to be. At the same time, I wish I had the type of friends who would realize what I was going through and MAKE me go out. But, like I said they're also going through their own stuff, and they probably don't have the strength either.

I've been to so many funerals over the past few years. My brother goes to 2-3 Dr. appointments a week (he has MS, IBS and Barretts), He's been taking so many tests lately...it's so hard to go thorugh, and see him go through. And my mother is a wreck!! I have a very sick friend who is pregnant so it's a scary pregnancy...and thats just the tip of the iceberg. More than anything I wish that everyone was healthy!!

Then there's the smaller problems, I can't find a job close to me (I have panic attacks on trains and buses by myself so it makes it so difficult trying to find a job!), which leads into money problems. I have no idea how we are going to afford this wedding when we are struggling to get through Christmas!! Then there just seems to be NO time. Even though I'm not working, all day I am CONSTANTLY busy!! I feel like I have to rush through everything I'm doing because there's just not enough time during the day...and then I have insomnia at nite, and the next day I am sooo tired all over again. It's a vicious cycle!!

I feel like, I just want to be the 'old' me..I had so much strength, and everyone was healthy, there were things to look foward to..etc..

I am obsessed with make-up too and looking cute/being girlie!! Now I feel like its a chore to put make-up on...ugh!!

Ahh.. I need to stop here...lolz. This post is getting out of control..I just keep typing. I swear I wrote all of this in like 3minutes..I just let it all out lolz..sorry!! But, thanks for letting me vent - and not feel so alone with this!!!


::hugsssss:: to everyone having a hard time. It'll get better!! At least thats what I keep telling myself!!

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Posted by Espo22

That just wants to get away from everything right now lol...with the wedding, personal issues, and just so many other things i feel worn out...its sad bc i remember this time last year and it was so different and great, we were engaged a few months and barely started planning and this week last year we went away and had a great trip and there were no problems at all. I go to bed late bc i have a million things on my mind, wake up early for work-tired all day and have so many things on my to do list that i have a hard time getting to I would give anything to go back in time one year ago lol

I made plans for after work to meet friends for happy hour and cant wait

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I think happy hour will def. be a temporary cure.

Question: How does your FH sleep and go on about his day? Does all of this stuff get to him like it gets to you? Or is he kind of blissfully unaware?

I feel like I carry all the stress....he's stressed don't get me wrong. But he has an extremely demanding job that lately has been making him work around the clock, so I feel like I try to keep as much additional stress away from him as I can....and I don't want to worry him with how stressed out I am, ya know?

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Oh fh is worse than me and gets less sleep than me, this whole weekend he stayed over my house and he told me i would be passed out and he was up until 4-5am. He handles stress worse than most ppl, he is manic depressive so its highs and lows with him and honestly his highs and lows have become my highs and lows, thats another thing having to deal with that, its not always easy