Bummed

I have officially given myself the rest of the night off. My brain hurts. So here it is...gotta vent.

1. I did not do well on one the 2 tests I took today. I am really upset about this. It's a hard class and I have an A average so far...or at least I should say, I used to have an A average. I have to keep my GPA very high for a number of reasons and this is stressing me out. I won't know the grade until next week, but I am flipping.

2. I am still blocked up with my thesis writing. I think I am going to delete the last paragraph I wrote because it's obviously causing a problem since I can't move on from there.

I know it seems like I am on here a lot, but really, I am just 'checking in' between thesis sections and therapy plans. Everyone's mind needs a break...and yes, planning my wedding is actually a psychological break for me...is that normal?

Tomorrow my class is cancelled and I get off of work at 1 pm, I am going to devote the rest of tomorrow to school work and studying. I have huge headache from all of the school-stress. I know it will be very much worth it at the end...and I know this is the life I chose. I feel guilty for being stressed out and I feel guilty for giving myself a break. It's just better then staring at the @#$%ing computer screen!

I can't win.

You will be fine. Good Luck with school. Are you almost done with school?

Thanks. I finish w/ my B.S. in May, then it's off to grad school (hopefully ) for 2 years. I think once I know where I am going to grad school and everything is done I will feel better. Until then I am just banging my head against the wall. My stomach is actually upset too...I am getting myself sick already. That's why I figured I would just lay off it tonight. I cuddled up with my doggie and watched Sister Act 2 (one of my fav movies...singing, yay!). I am going to go to bed soon. Then tomorrow after work, hopefully, I feel a little better.

Oh honey.. May will be here before you know it!!!

Hang in there!!!!!