Feeling sick to my stomach - MORE UPDATES w/ Mom's email to the BP!

So I know I've posted about what a nightmare my shower was due to drama between my MOH and my FSIL (BM). Essentially, FSIL took over and did everything. My MOH and other BM did nothing except hand over $200... well let me rephrase... my MOH handed over the money. FSIL is still waiting on most of the money from my BM.

Because I didn't want to know anything that was going on, everyone has all these pent up feelings and emotions. Well, last night, FH pretty much exploded on me. He told me that it's not right what my MOH and BM are doing. That if FSIL had let them plan the shower it would've been a misery and I wouldn't have been happy at all. He kept saying, 'What goes around, comes around,' which means what?? When it's their turn, he's going to limit what I do for them and how much I spend??? I could not even speak... I sat there at the table shaking like a leaf - I couldn't even look at him. He knew how upset I was and he's like, 'Now I'm getting annoyed so I'm going out for a cig.' Well good for you! What about how I feel now that you let it all out into my lap????? So he called FSIL and told her he told me. She is SO angry with him and she kept trying to tell me 'what really happened' but I also know 'what really happened' from my MOH and BM. So what am I sposed to do now???

I am PETRIFIED that this drama will come out at the RD and then the wedding day (the next time they are all together) even though they're all swearing to me that it won't. Yes well, they swore that about my shower too, and it happened.

I feel absolutely sick to my stomach! I haven't eaten since lunch yesterday. I took a Xanax but it's not doing a whole lot. I'm not really mad at FH for telling me, but what DOES bother me is how he feels about my 2 best friends b/c of all this. They are such a big part of my life, whether he and his family hate them or not! I just feel sick and I don't even know what to do anymore. And, I am alone all weekend b/c my parents are away and FH has some other things going on. So that isn't exactly keeping my mind occupied! Thank goodness I am going to my therapist Monday night. I think I am going to ask her if I can extend my session for like 5 hours!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sorry, ladies. I know this is long but I just really needed to get it out.