hey girls

I was waiting until some things were cleared up, but I just wanted to come on here and let you know how much it means to me to have so, so many of you write such kind things about me, send me such loving fms, and reach out to me on fb.

I never saw this coming..I really thought Michael and I had a great relationship..was it perfect? No. But we never fought, we saw each other every day, and there were absolutely no warning signs (well, according to him the fact that he fell asleep and went to target should have set off flags, but oh well).

He did it over a text message, which was so, so much less than what I deserved. And the best reason he could give me for leaving was that I was myself, I have 'ocd', and I like to be happy-to me these really aren't reasons to call off a 5 1/2 year relationship and a wedding out of the blue. He said he had been unhappy for a very long time, and that everything about the wedding made him 'sad'.

I am proving myself to be stronger than I ever imagined though. He already took away 5 1/2 years of my life, and I just keep reminding myself that he doesn't deserve another day. I've been surrounded by amazing friends, and my family. I've re-connected with friends I haven't seen in years. I've been asked out multiple times haha. I'll get through this, and one day I'll find someone who appreciates me for who I am, and contributes an equal amount to our relationship.

I'm trying to hold off on making any life altering decisions right now, but I also want to use this as an opportunity to examine what it is that I really want from my life. I think I want to go back to school again, and I've wanted to move back to Texas for a very, very long time-it was something Michael was always against, but I now have the opportunity to do that if it's what I decide I really want.

Again-thank you for everything you have done for me-you are all amazing girls, and I'll still come on to look at your weddings..I've been lurking here and there, and my life is better for knowing all of you.

<3 Kayla