mortified by my own behavior(long)

I don't know what to do, if I should just let it go or not. I went out with a large group of people, to celebrate a birthday. The night started early, around 5:30pm, drinking champagne, and around 11pm we headed to a bar...started drinking vodka. This is where the night gets hazy. I have NO memory of the rest of it. My boyfriend has filled in the blanks. I apparently told him I was tired and ready to go, we grabbed a cab, we were all lovey dovey....I started to pass out in the cab, and when we got to the apartment, he woke me up and got me out....and this is the really bad part: I got really violent, pushing him away, taking swings at him. He just overpowered me, threw me over his shoulder and into the elevator we went, but he said that I never calmed down, I just went totally psycho. I don't remember it, I don't know what set me off. Obviously I am going to stop drinking for a while, but has this ever happened to anyone??? Is it ok to blow it off, lay off the drinking for a while, but not make a big deal of it? I am so embarrassed, I am just glad that no one else saw me like that.

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I too get a tad argumentative, even a little violent under the influence. it's great that you've recognized it right away. I would apologize to your boyfriend and lay off the alcohol for a little bit.

I understand that you're embarrassed, but it's really not that bad.

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thanks....I just wish I knew what set me off.

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Mixing alcohols is a big no no.

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i've done stuff like this before. i know how embarrassed you must feel, but it wasn't as if your actions were intentional. i would cut off the drinking for a while or at least stay away from vodka. apologize and just try to forget about it.

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thanks guys....sometimes you just need some else to give you a sanity check. I appreciate it!!!!

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I did this once. It was the college senior booze cruise. I left that pretty drunk and then went to the bar with friends, where I proceeded to go overboard with the shots. I don't remember anything after that. Apparently we went back to campus and my friend couldn't drive me home because my purse and keys were in someone elses car so we had to wait for them to get back from the diner. So sitting in the car I guess I got very impatient and started throwing a temper tantrum- punching the dashboard, flailing around, beating on my friend. He finally took me home and put me into bed. I woke up not knowing what had happened, how I got home and where the million bruises on me had come from. I had to face all these people at graduation and it was pretty embarrasing.

My suggestion would be to sincerely apoligize to your man and lay off the drinking, or at least mixing, for a while. You just had a bad night and you will probably know better in the future. I can tell you, my experience was 4 years ago and I haven't been like that since.

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Don't worry about it too much, just be careful not to drink that much again. The worse part about this now is FH is never going to let you live it down, but in a week or so, you'll probably be able to laugh about it.

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This happened to me a few moths ago. I remember getting home and I thought I went to bed but DH says that I was up for hours. I really haven't drank since. I have no desire.

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nope, he's letting it go anytime soon...he's already made it clear this can't happen again....not that he's wrong, but hopefully we will laugh about it soon. not real soon....f**k! Whoops.

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I know it's not something you're overly proud of, but just let it go. Things happen and everyone overdrinks at one time or another. Keep your mixing to a minimum and you should be fine!

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that is me every time I drink shots of tequila. this pyscho crazy woman comes out- needless to say I cant drink tequila anymore.....well at least not that often!