NWR: Sharing
You know... 2 months ago I was hesitant to tell you all ANYTHING at all. Now I can't imagine NOT telling you almost EVERYTHING!
I have been very irritable and not so much myself lately. And it is partly due to some weird stuff happening in my life.
5 years ago my big sister passed away. She was diagnosed with breast cancer just before Thanksgiving and we buried her on Christmas Eve. My sisters and I were advised to get ourselves checked out immediately. I was still nursing my son - so I did not get a mammogram then. My son stopped nursing at 16 months - about when I found out I was pregnant with my 2nd son! After another 16 months of nursing I went for my first mammogram and had to go back for a cone compression - they advised me to come back every 6 months at that point . I got very busy and never went back. That was December 2004.
About 2 weeks ago I noticed that I had some discharge from my right nipple. So I made an appointment with my OB/Gyn. Did you know they can do PAP smears of the breast? That's what he did on Thursday night. Then he gave me slips to see another doctor about my boobs. He also gave me a script for a bilateral mammogram and told me they were going to do a test where they put some sort of stuff in my boobs to illuminate the ducts and see if there are any blockages.
I am so scared. I have 2 little boys - but I know that this is an Indiscriminate disease.. my sister left a 4 year old behind. I can't tell my FH or my sisters or my friends how freaked out I am because I don't want them to be scared or nervous. But I am sooo tired of putting up this happy go lucky facade all the time. I don't want to be sick. And I really am not ready to die.
So anyway... I wanted to share. Because it feels good to say things that sometimes I am afraid to say out loud.
ETA: It really is probably nothing. I mean they are probably just doing all this stuff because of my sister. But I can't help being nervous...
I have been very irritable and not so much myself lately. And it is partly due to some weird stuff happening in my life.
5 years ago my big sister passed away. She was diagnosed with breast cancer just before Thanksgiving and we buried her on Christmas Eve. My sisters and I were advised to get ourselves checked out immediately. I was still nursing my son - so I did not get a mammogram then. My son stopped nursing at 16 months - about when I found out I was pregnant with my 2nd son! After another 16 months of nursing I went for my first mammogram and had to go back for a cone compression - they advised me to come back every 6 months at that point . I got very busy and never went back. That was December 2004.
About 2 weeks ago I noticed that I had some discharge from my right nipple. So I made an appointment with my OB/Gyn. Did you know they can do PAP smears of the breast? That's what he did on Thursday night. Then he gave me slips to see another doctor about my boobs. He also gave me a script for a bilateral mammogram and told me they were going to do a test where they put some sort of stuff in my boobs to illuminate the ducts and see if there are any blockages.
I am so scared. I have 2 little boys - but I know that this is an Indiscriminate disease.. my sister left a 4 year old behind. I can't tell my FH or my sisters or my friends how freaked out I am because I don't want them to be scared or nervous. But I am sooo tired of putting up this happy go lucky facade all the time. I don't want to be sick. And I really am not ready to die.
So anyway... I wanted to share. Because it feels good to say things that sometimes I am afraid to say out loud.
ETA: It really is probably nothing. I mean they are probably just doing all this stuff because of my sister. But I can't help being nervous...
