wedding is OFF!!!- long

Hi girls! I've been away for a while trying to come to grips with my new situation...the wedding is off.
I caught my FH cheating on me.
Here's the scenario: My gal pals wanted to take me away from planning and out to dinner & drinks, my FH was more than happy for me to go out (little did I know at the time why,) so I went. We had a nice time eating, laughing, drinking, discussing the big day... I decided to call my FH and give him a heads-up about how things were going, but when I called he didn't pick-up and the machine answered. I left a message saying I was just checking in and I'd talk to him later, blah, blah... BUT just as I was about to hang up SHE picked up the phone. SHE said, 'who is this?' I calmly said back, 'who is this?' SHE said, 'It's Josh's girlfriend.' I almost fell off my chair. I calmy said to her, ' Really, well this is Josh's fiance.' SHE said 'He told me all about you and your obsession with him. Honey you have to face it, he broke up with you, it's over. Move on with your life.' I was trying not to throw up and said to her, 'What are you talking about? We're getting married in November.' SHE said, 'I feel bad for you, it seems like you're not living in the real world, you're not engaged to him anymore, and you really need to let go and stop having delusions that you are getting back together with Josh, He's mine and that's it!' Since my eyes were swelled up w/ tears and the lump in my throat prevented me from saying anything else I hung up and balled like a baby to my gals. (thank God for them...) Anyway, I talked to him the next day he said sorry that I had to find out this way, that he realized he wasn't ready to settle down yet and that he didn't think he loved me, that he didn't think he was ever in love with me (ouch!) Anyway, I went to Florida w/ my cousin and have been just trying to relax and focus on something else, it's been really really hard though. I know it's going to take some time. My family/friends have been great and totally supporting of me and ready to kill him. I just wanted to say to each and every one of you out there: good luck with the rest of your planning. I wish you all nothing but the best in life love & happiness. I know this was all for the best, it'll just take a while for me to really believe it... Hopefully one day in the future when I do meet the real Mr. Right, I'll come back to chat here and do this all over again. It's been fun and very helpful. My best to you guys, Jenna