b/c I just found out my unemployment ran out last week not this week & I didnt get the recent approved extension to april 4th
I went through all the jobs Ive applied for since I knew I was losing my job back in may of last year & some of the emails I lost b/c of my comp crash in nov so I know there's AT LEAST another 50 unaccounted for, but I have applied for....387 positions since May 4th, 2009 & only gotten 1 interview from all of that. I have been having shallow breathing all day & almost feeling like Im having a panic attack. I just cannot believe that I have applied to that many jobs (& that is just the TEACHING jobs) - I have probably applied to about 25-30 clerical jobs too(w/no response) - with only ONE response to come for teaching & interview & STILL NO JOB.
I am trying not to freak out in front of DH but unfortunately I am no good at poker face - & have been avoiding him all day until he has to go to work tonight so I can finally break down & cry.
Now I want to add that I did drive up to unemployment today & they told me to call Albany on Thurs - but I called anyway on my way home today & I did get approved for another 20 weeks (thankfully), but I really feel like a freak that I have applied for SO many jobs & NO one wants to even INTERVIEW me, much less HIRE me...I really feel like something is wrong with me...
I know that by being upset that it doesnt help & I am only drawing more negative energy to me....but wow I am feeling like I am suffocating/drowning & I just cant catch my breath & I am really scared.
Sorry to be such a downer guys....but I dont want to put this all on DH - he has so much already on his plate. Thanks for listening if you've made it this far.
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I feel your pain though, I'm not a teacher and I'm not getting any calls on any of the jobs that I'm sending my resume out for, I think between me being home and DH seeing me home when he gets home, both of us are getting tired of it
AugustBridein09
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I agree with the other girls abt venturing out into other fields. Can your family help? Like connections wise? Maybe they can help hand out your resume too?
I'm sooo sorry.
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Im sooo sorry Laurie!!! DH has been out of work for 11 months and finally started a new job today. He wasnt even getting unemployment and we have struggled but, we made it through all of it. Think positive and keep your head up, you are a great person and the right job that you are suposed to get is right around the corner.
coldasice217
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Are you crafty at all? Perhaps you can moonlight on Etsy to try to get some pocket money at least?
meara
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Aw Laurie. .so sorry you are going through this. . I know how awful this must be. ..well I don't know of course but I can imagine. . i have no real words of advice - just hang in there. . remember that you are amazing and wherever you work will be lucky to have you! Have you considered doing any volunteer work while you're waiting? Just to feel like someone will appreciate you and to have something structured to do with your time. I did that when I was unemplyed for a long time and it really helped!!!
and then to ramble on. .
and I Do def know how you feel about having children. .DH an I are in the same boat right now, we're so ready to try and are worried about the money and being able to afford it. . DH is out of work and I def don't make enough $ to do it on our own and would have to leave my job if I got pregnant bc it's 75% travel!
