Dress Question, updated with pics

I am worried about my dress again I don't know why I have had such a hard time with this.

Here is the story: I ordered a dress in June, then I already did one re-select ( I was only allowed to pick from the same designer I ordered because the first dress I ordered had already gone into production). Now, I am unsure about the new dress and I cannot get the first dress from Kleinfelds (a completely different designer) I loved out of my head. The reason I didn't get the first dress was because I was just afraid that I was making a decision too quickly and I wanted to look around more. But now, I think I am willing to lose the deposit on the dress I ordered to get the original dress that I loved at Kleinfelds but I am really unsure what to do now. Plus I would lose a pretty large deposit on my first dress since I wouldn't even be able to order the same dress.

I am trying to find someone to go back to see both dresses again with me but its tough because my bridesmaids now want to kill me since I have been really indecisive about this. I am seriosuly afriad to tell people about this, especially my mom.

What would you guys do? I need you guys to be completely honest Am I being crazy?

ETA to add pictures of both dresses, the second one is the one that I have ordered, the first is from Kleinfelds