I am feeling bummed...UPDATED added scar pics at bottom- not for long...cuz ew

so- i have been researching and looking into bpics for fh. And I have been considering what I would wear, and I have all these cute ideas. But- i keep wondering if I should be looking for stuff that covers my scars (from open heart surgery with bypass, so i have the one on my chest, the few on my belly from minor surgery and the LONG one on my leg from the bypass)

AND its not the covering it up thing that bothers me- its just making me feel bad about my scars. NOW i almost NEVER feel bad about them. But every once and a while i become VERY aware of them. ANd generally I am proud of them because of the time in my life that they represent, but again...every once and a while I feel like 'ah man.'

If i thought you girls wouldn't be grossed out (or wanted to see them!!) I would post the pics I have from the hospital so you could see where all the scars are...but they are brusied and stuff and those pics were taken the same week as the surgery, and even though for some reason i would LOVE to share them, i don't wanna make poeple sick!!!!

sigh...