It cannot get any worse...[long]

alioop4282 Posted: Sep 01, 2006 01:10 PM

Re: It cannot get any worse...[long]

Wow.
You guys are awesome..I am in tears reading how much support I have here.

I KNOW I made the right decision. If I didn't think it was the right decison, I wouldn't have done it. I always follow my gut and I did what I had to do.
The thing is..I love him...but I love me more.

I kept thinking that my dress is beautiful, my wedding day will be beautiful, but the next day when it is all over, I will be married and I know that I don't want that right now.

Finding a new job will help distract me from all this, I hope. I cannot believe I lost my job although I honestly had the feeling it was going to happen because my company just outsourced to India. I even WENT there in June to HELP with the migration and then they LET ME GO!!

I will be ok..this too shall pass..I know that. FH is being really supportive, telling me he has moneya nd I shouldn't worry. I just don't like to rely on anyone though. I WANT to work. I don't want his money, ya know?

Anyway..sorry for going on and on..I just wanted to tell you all who replied to this that I appreciate you more than you know and I'm so glad I have you all to cry to.
I wish you all luck and happiness and I will still be on here to talk to you girls.
I still have my rock on my finger, so technically I am still a future bride.

KD1279 Posted: Sep 01, 2006 01:22 PM

Re: It cannot get any worse...[long]

Posted by sarahradio5

wow... I give you a lot of credit. You're a very strong person for making a decision like that. What will be, will be - but for now you have to do what's best for you. Take this time to take baths with candles lit around you and a glass of wine in hand, go for a massage, take your adorable dog for a long walk... just relax and BE. And enjoy your boyfriend and each other's company without any stress.

As for the job, someone once told me that when God closes a door, he always leaves a window open. This happened for a reason, even if you can't see it yet. And thank God you have notice and some time to look around. Maybe this is an opportunity in disguise. Go out there and find and do something you LOVE so you never HAVE to go to work everyday. SEIZE this moment and make changes in your life so you live the life you WANT to live - in every way. This could be a very empowering time in your life, if that's what you make it.

As for the pain of it all (and as I realize that I will now be crowned the Queen of cliches), this, too, shall pass - and in the end, you will be stronger. Just have faith and rely on your family, friends and the man you love and you'll be fine. And you'll always have US!!

Could not have said that any better! Hang in there sweetie! Lots of courage you have!!!!!We all love you and please FM , or post anything you need to vent! I really wish I new of a job! Try Craigslist, that was a great idea!!!!!
God bless you!!