up and down...

okay so im really trying to stay connected with you girls, but i feel like i have nothing to contribute, so it really stinks... i kinda miss being able to be more involved...

i will say that this morning was a little rough, but its not because i miss 'him'... i miss the idea of him, if that makes sense... like i miss waking up to kisses, but i dont miss waking up to his kisses... i know that sounds weird, but i think thats what it is...

every time i think of him, i get kind of disgusted and mad at myself for letting it go on as long as i did... has anyone else ever felt that way or am I as big of a whackadoo as they are?

anyway, i'll try to throw out more ideas and comments and things like that... sorry im not so fun anymore . lol <3333 love you all!

Marissa i think it's a huge step that you can at least admit that you know you miss the 'idea' and not the guy. a lot of girls get so scared and upset that they think it's the guy they miss. they go back and it turns out bad all over again and then they are hurt all over again. You are so strong and it's remarkable! Keep your head up, you will find that perfect someone and you will be sooo happy that you stayed strong and did what was right for you.

you are still fun! no need to apologize.

aww riss! hugs and kisses

I have nothing to contribute either-I have nothing booked or planned for my 'wedding' that is supposed to take place...but i dunno its a habit to come on here!

Look, post whatever the heck you want to post because (yeah its a wedding website) but who cares?! The same things are said over and over--talk about whatever. I will still read and you should still come on here!

and you ARE fun...dont say you're not. I really think you're handling this very well. I on the other hand, would be a mess. I think you're a very strong woman.

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Posted by DonnaPWhite1124

I have nothing to contribute either-I have nothing booked or planned for my 'wedding' that is supposed to take place...but i dunno its a habit to come on here!

Look, post whatever the heck you want to post because (yeah its a wedding website) but who cares?! The same things are said over and over--talk about whatever. I will still read and you should still come on here!

and you ARE fun...dont say you're not. I really think you're handling this very well. I on the other hand, would be a mess. I think you're a very strong woman.

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i second that! hhaha

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Posted by MrsDtoBe09

You're totally still fun... and crazy! I can relate to your idea of missing what things represent but not the actual person, but you have to think about the positive things you're getting instead of those kisses that seemed nice but underneath there was more to it. Treat YOURSELF the way you know you deserve to be treated. Don't wait for another guy to come around to remind you that you are smart/beautiful/funny... tell yourself that! I think we're too dependent on men for making ourselves feel good!

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youre not BOTW for nothing ya know! that really made me feel very good about myself, angela. thank you so much.

thank all of you, seriously... <3

Marissa,

I am so sorry that you are feeling the way that you are...but you have to know that you have made some amazing decisions and are being SO strong. Admitting that you miss the idea of Jordan is really incredible. Most women can't ever admit to something like that. I am proud of you for being able to see so clearly even though you are hurting. This will get better for you. It is still SO new.

As for posting, DON'T stop! We love you on these boards even if you never mention anything that has to do with weddings ever again! I know I just love reading what you have to say about ANYTHING. You are not going anywhere and that is that!

stay strong....totally understand the whole missing the idea of him! but you made the right decision for you and thats awesome....
lover you!

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Posted by tinadansr

stay strong....totally understand the whole missing the idea of him! but you made the right decision for you and thats awesome....
lover you!

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i just wish that I had done it, and he didnt... ya know? like it was something i wanted to do in the back of my head, but was too cowardly to do it... so instead he did it, albeit he did it a chicken way, but he still did it.

anyway, i just cut my hair, and feel fab. so who cares. lol