Update to Calling of Engagement

Feb 19, 2009 11:24 AM

First off i want to thank everyone for their advice. I decided that last night after work i was going to tell him how i felt about everything. He doesnt get home from work till 7:45 so i had a few hours to get my head together between work and him coming home. When he got home, I just couldn't say anything to him but he could tell there was something on my mind. At 10:15 we went to be and he started saying all this stuff about how he's unhappy and doesnt look foward to coming home. So I used everything he was saying and finanlly got the words out that i dont want to marry him. He took it better then i expected. He did ask if i ment the wedding is completely cancelled or if its just off for now and we might be able to work on it and just postpone it right now. He asked like 5 times during the night and i kept getting that horrible guilty feeling and kept flipping my answer. I told him that i would give the ring back today (my fingers swell really bad at night and i couldnt even get the ring to spin last night). He is very upset and mad at himself. He has been calling me and texting me all moring saying that he loves me and begging me not to leave. He has also made comments about how much i mean to him and how much of an a$$ he has been and if its really over he realizes that he might be giving up the best thing that has ever happened. He asked me what he should tell his parents so i told him he can tell them whatever he wants. Later in the night, I found out that his girlfriend he had before me left him because he was asking for sex from another girl and she caught him and left. So he has no only done this to me but the girl before me. Since it was getting really late at this point we were both exhausted and he asked if we could talk tonight after work right when he gets home so i said yes. We will see how things go tonight but i need to stay strong and trust my instincts and not let him make feel guilty.