Worst time of my life

Hey girls.. just to give a quick update. i havent been on in a while because my mom is very very ill. she is 45 and called me from home just saying help help from her cell on thurs. now living 45 min away i tried to get to her as fast as i could dispatching an ambulance at the same time. she was rushed to the ER where she was found to have a bleed in the brain. She was transfered to north shore university hospital. they ended up intubating her and she was heavly sedated for the last 2 days and was extubated last night. last night was a rough night for her as far as oxygen and they were talking of putting her back on the vent. I didnt leave her bedside at all... last few nights and she was doing well today and was talking.still unable to swollow but new what was going on. she told me to go home and get some sleep and so i did as she wished and now feel so guilty for leaving her. Everyone please pray tommorow we determine the type of surgery that is going to be used to save her life. thanks in advance for everything. im sooo scared and dont know what i should be doin.