The worst week ever.... prayers def. appreciated

hey ladies.. sorry i haven't been on too much this week... but ever since My eparty sunday.. i've been a little down. I've just been feeling sad ...and things just seem to not be going my way.. i just haven't even felt like thinking about the wedding... it's just depressing at this point.
And So far things just seem to be getting sadder..
monday we found out my 16 year old cousin was in the hospital.. his brother called my grandmother to ask her what kind of cancer my grandfather had because they were testing 2 lumps they found. Well last night we got the results and it's Hodgkin's.. They seem to feel that he's in great health and that they got it early..but it's still pretty scary. They were just up visiting in august and were here for our mini eparty/FH's bday party that we had in our yard(they moved down to florida 3 years ago).. and he seemed to be feeling fine.. so it's a little shocking. We had no idea that he had even noticed a lump. When i heard i just assumed it was probably an infection of some kind.. I had a swollen lymph node on the back of my neck a few months ago that was there forever..but it was small.. i had it checked right away cause i get scared.. and they said it was just reactive.. so i figured it would be the same for him. Now he will be undergoing treatment.. so i just really hope all goes well and i guess i have to believe that it will. So now at this point that's all i know... and it seems like a horrible end to a horrible week. I'm just so tired.. ya know what i mean.. and i feel seriously helpless ...i'm also tired of going up and out of my way for everyone and when it comes to me no one does anything.. unless of course it's because they feel like they have to .. not cause they want to.. and yet even with that.. i'm still too nice to people and i have no idea why..
and now on top of already feeling crappy about things.. i get bad news.. and dealing with that on top of everything is just not going well .. i'm just not good at this stuff.. And i know nobody is..but i just feel tired now..

well..Thanks for listening ladies.. even if it turns out that i made no sense..
some prayers for my cousin would be greatly appreciated.. and i could def. use some hugs right about now ...

oooooooooooooohhhhhhhhhhhh sweetie!!!! i am so sorry!!! I am sure everything will be ok!! if you need to talk FM me!!

Aww sweetie Im so sorry to hear that! I know what you're going through w/ your cousin b/c my cousin had the same thing. He was diagnosed when he was 17 but they caught it early and he's been clear for 2 years now. And Im sure it will go the same way for your family!

so sorry you are going through this
i hope your cousin gets better

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Posted by cds58019

Aww sweetie Im so sorry to hear that! I know what you're going through w/ your cousin b/c my cousin had the same thing. He was diagnosed when he was 17 but they caught it early and he's been clear for 2 years now. And Im sure it will go the same way for your family!

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thank god your cousin is ok!!! It's just too young to be sick like that..!! I have good faith that he will be ok too.. it's just scary since you really have no control over it.. ya know. But thank you for sharing your experience.. def. helps to give me hope

awww for you!

for your cousin... he will be ok, he is young... like you said he looks fine and good thing they caught it in time.. try to cheer up (easier said than done) you need to send your cousin positive energy! is he down in florida right now?

you can always come on here when you need to talk...

feel free to fm

so sorry you feel like this and going through alot ...i pray your cousin gets better and hope things will start looking up for you. Just remember this too shall pass

If there is ANYTHING i can do... please ask.
I can totally relate to how you're feeling right now, what with my mom and everything.
It's so hard to deal with this stuff, and it def makes wedding stuff so much harder to even think about.

anything you need... i'll do my best to help you out.

wow im so sorry to hear about this..i'll keep you and your family in my prayers ..hugs (cause you really need them) If you need anything, even a shoulder to cry on..we're here for you!

i'm so sorry i hope everything works out

and lots of to you hun

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Posted by o8bride

and lots of to you hun

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those hugs werent supposed to be smiling.. im sorry

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Posted by o8bride

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Posted by o8bride

and lots of to you hun

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those hugs werent supposed to be smiling.. im sorry

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that's ok.. the smiley hugs wouldn't be so bad right now..

Thanks girls.. i really do appreciate it. It makes me feel better just to know that people care..
It's frustrating sometimes.. i don't even bother to tell other people my problems anymore ... and i hate to complain.. i always try and be the rock.. the one who is there for everyone else..but sometimes it really does help to get it off your chest sometimes.

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Posted by JTsGal829

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Posted by o8bride

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Posted by o8bride

and lots of to you hun

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those hugs werent supposed to be smiling.. im sorry

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that's ok.. the smiley hugs wouldn't be so bad right now..

Thanks girls.. i really do appreciate it. It makes me feel better just to know that people care..
It's frustrating sometimes.. i don't even bother to tell other people my problems anymore ... and i hate to complain.. i always try and be the rock.. the one who is there for everyone else..but sometimes it really does help to get it off your chest sometimes.

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don't ever feel like that!!! you should let it out..if it builds it just makes it that much harder on yourself..and your not complaining at all..this is a really sad story..i hope it all works out

Im sorry to hear about your cousin. Its good that they found it early and that hes young. I will keep you and your family in my thoughts and prayers that things get better for you.

dont worry....things will turn around for you. Just keep your head up!

And we'll keep your cousin in our thoughts and prayers.